On Happiness and love:
I am at the age where my friends have started to panic.
They are starting to worry that they might be alone forever. That they might not find the one.
I am at the age where people have started to pressure me. To pressure my friends, and question us why we have not settled down.
At the same time, we are also at the age where we are still growing, still dreaming, still hoping. And when things go wrong, we still have that left over teenage emotions left.
But i think, and this is so important. I think, for me at least, i am not yet ready to be in a relationship.
Why?
Simply because if i were to get into one now, i think that i will expect him to fill a part of my emptiness, when the reality is that i should fill up all my black holes and broken pieces before i meet him.
I've always hated the term 'my other half'. Because i do not want to be a half. I do not want to be with someone because i need them. I want to be with someone because i want them. That is a big difference by the way. Needs and Wants.
i've learnt that unless i fix myself, i will be ruining and hurting everyone that loves me. It is toxic really, imagine loving someone who does not love herself. Imagine being in a relationship where due to her insecurities, she misplaced her distrust unto you. Not a fun journey
So yes. Maybe i have reached the age where all my friends are getting married and having kids. But i do not think that it is my time yet. And really, i would rather be late than be wrong.
Everyone has a different pace and a different time line for their life.
Dont feel the need to 'catch up' or do not feel like you are being' left behind' simply because you are not going at the same pace with your friends.
Focus on yourself.
Keep improving yourself.
So when you finally meet the one,
You will be ready.
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